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| Soooo - we came back from a great weekend trip.
- Bekah's play (Much Ado About Nothing) was great.
- Kevin's graduation and his party (he and Rebecca just bought a cute little house).
- Then Stephen and I went to Nashville, TN with Chris and Janie to visit Stephen's grandmother (she's dying... sad, but her mind is very sharp so we had a very nice visit with her).
- Went by grandmother's house to get my dress hemmed (Brittany's wedding is next month)
- Then picked up Julie (she's staying with us for the week, then for my graduation party she'll head home)
Here's the thing............................
- First I got Svetlana, they told me she was a girl. She is not. He's a He.
- Then I got Olivia, they told me she was a girl. She is not. He's another He.
- The I got Marishka, they told me she was a girl. She is. She's also a mother now.
- We have four baby Syberian Dwarf Hampseter pups. It was quite a surprise to come home to find this little squirming mass. They're so ugly like little worms. But they's also so helpless it's cute. Hopefully Marish, will be a good mom.
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can't get here soon enough! that's all i have to say about that!
(pray for me that i'll make it)
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| here's a "tag" game that i'll actually play.
1. List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Disable comments
4. Never discuss it again
1. i want to be you, and then i don't. there are so many good
thing, but so many things that make me cry and drive me crazy. i
hope to have as much love as you have but less anger in my heart.
i want so so badly to make you proud, that's what i've always
wanted.
2. i don't know why you act the way you do. it breaks my heart
because i want so much for us. i feel bad, i feel selfish for
letting this worry overwhelm me and focus on what it is about myself
that you dislike so much. i hate how this has changed me, i am
not myself when i'm around you and that is my fault because i can't
control you, i can only control myself. i want to be friends, i
want to have a relationship. i always pray for you, for us.
3. i love you so much it hurts and sometimes i'm afraid of what will
happen, that i just haven't been good enough in my life and that this
is a dream that i'll wake up from or something terrible will
happen. i love you more each day, you turn me into such a
girl. i never knew things could be this good. it humbles me.
4. i don't understand you sometimes. it seems like you have
everything going for you and still you find ways to screw your life
up. you're so beautiful and wonderful and i love you. i
think that if you stopped listening to the voices in your head that are
telling you you're somehow less than, not worthy of love then your life
would turn out just like you always really wanted.
5. i'm sorry for being a jerk to you. i hope we've learned from each other. i do love you.
6. where to even start i don't know...because there are so many things
i want to pour out of my heart, things that have been there for
years. no real regrets though, i will always think of you, always
love you, and always wish the best for you.
7. i don't know why you're mean sometimes, sometimes it felt like we
were enemies and i don't know why. because i love you, you are so
wonderful and wise and i truly admire you. i think sometime's
it's just our immaturity. just don't shut me out, i hate that.
8. i look up to you. i love you and i think that God will do
amazing things with your life. i'm so proud to have you as a
friend now, i'm glad we got over all that stupid stuff. its nice
to know i'll always have someone there... you know i'm always here for
you.
9. you terrify me, but i love you. i'm so glad we've become
closer these past few years. sometimes i felt like i was missing
out on what other people had, but i understand what we have is just
different and that's ok. i think it helps being an adult and
standing up for my self, standing up to you and not back down because i
know i've been in the right and you were wrong (and that feels so weird
to say, because in my little mind that's not how things are supposed to
be). i wish you weren't so scared of tenderness and to love
people and be loved. i think you are tallented and charming and i
hope to be that gracious when i am your age.
10. sometimes i feel like we're fake, and only shallow and that makes
me sad and i don't know how to make things different between us.
there have been times that you made me so mad, times that you really
hurt me, times that i thought you were a joke. i'm sorry for my
part in those times, i hope we can heal. i will always always
always love you.
*please read rules again*
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| i hate slugs: True!
my favorite color is Pink: True!
i'm obsessed with Real World: False!
my mole is on my right cheek: True!
my toenails are "tequila sunset": True!
Law and Order: SVU freaks me out, and yet i can't turn away: True!
i can wiggle my ears: True!
i love shrimp: False!
i'm not a big ice cream fan: True!
rainbows, marshmellows and bunnyrabbits: True!
i would watch You've Got Mail once a week: True!
i failed my last ASL test: False!
secretly, i wish i was a rockstar: False!
i have a little OCD: True!
i love waking up my hampsters when they're sleeping: True!
i'm very still when i sleep: True!
i don't like brad pitt: True!
i can drive a stick shift like a pro: False!
i'm getting a bunny for easter: True!
i graduate may 21: True!
grapefruit makes me gag: True!
i scare easily: True!
i have a mind like a hawk: True!
my first love was davy crockett: True!
my middle name is Ruth: True!
i have bad sense of smell: False!
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and I wasn't there.
